MY MENTAL HEALTH EXPERIENCE

This is the last page I am writing on my blog. I have attempted to write this so many times but I couldn’t because it took me back to such a dark place. I even thought about deleting this page. But I know I have to do this not only for myself but I know it’s going to help someone out there.

Mental health creeps in very subtly. For me, I lost all my self-confidence. I thought that I had no purpose. I became very depressed. I isolated myself from everyone- my family, friends and even came off social media. I just felt like there was no reason why I should live.

It all started before...

I left university. I used to get a lot of panic attacks on my way to university. It was so bad that on one occasion I had to get off the train halfway to Uni and I went to a friends house. All of these were signs of mental health but I never told anyone close to me. I spoke to a counselor at my university but they didn’t offer much help. So, I went to my GP and they suggested for me to do things that will help me emotionally. They also suggested that if it kept going on, I should come in for medication. However, I knew the side effects of these medications but I didn’t understand why I started to feel so much anxiety and depression.

 The thing about depression is until you tell someone, nothing will ever get solved. My healing process began when I started talking to people about how sad I felt. It was more of an outburst because I was having suicidal thoughts.The only thing that stopped me was speaking to my friends and family. Crying everything out that I had held on the inside, emptied my mind and the thoughts that tormented me day and night.Religion plays a big role in my life. So, I started praying and attending church more- this helped my self-esteem and emotions to stay continuously lifted. 

I want to create this mental health awareness page because I want you to think about yourself for a minute.

Are there any thoughts that make you isolate yourself, stay in the dark or feel less than everyone? Or even question yourself like, why am I here?

 I want to let you know that you’re very important. You are still here because you have a purpose and everything is going to be okay. I went through it and I conquered and you will too.

PLEASE, do not suffer alone. Speak to somebody. If you haven’t got any friends or family, here is a number below- there is always someone waiting to hear everything. They will listen and advise you every step of the way.

PLEASE, you are not alone.

SPEAK OUT and get HELP.